An Ordinary Day

Week 123 – July 21, 2022 – Creating a New Identity

OK. I’m writing this blog post the day after. Time is flying by and I had a wonderful day yesterday on the 21st. It was an ordinary day. I got up. Showered. Made a cup of coffee and got on with my day. It was a full day. I helped my kid with her schooling and paying tuition, I went to a meeting online, and got my new computer deployed and installed at work. My kid took me out for dinner and it was an awesome day.

I feel great at about my research agenda. I bumped into a colleague at work and asked her a question about some wonderings about my potential research and I was looking for some clarity and confirmation. Guess what? I got it. I was so happy. It was the biggest gift I got that day. No wait… my kid bought my dinner. No wait… I had a great meeting. No wait… my new computer is going to make me a better person.

What I did realize today is, this day was my former wedding anniversary. I celebrated my relationship and marriage for several decades on this day, July 21st, and now it’s just an ordinary day. It feel good. I am me. It’s difficult to describe, but I feel liberated. I am giving myself permission and grace to be me and it feels great. I am open and willing to receive what the universe has to offer. I feel lucky that this is my day.

I am looking at my 13-year old self. Who am I and what’s important to me? Looking back at my true self is difficult because I have to relearn who that person is and have the strength to give myself the space and time to develop that person. I am learning what I love to do and what brings me joy. I am also recognizing what does not bring me joy and taking that moment to say goodbye and letting it go wholeheartedly.

I am entering a new chapter in my life. I’ve been entering or awhile but today I feel like I have landed and feel firm in my stance. I am standing tall and it feels good. I am feeling rested, restored, and rejuvenated. I am in a good place and I am grateful. My family just asked me today if I loved my job, where I lived, and the people in my community. I answered yes to all three questions. This was a revelation. Yay me.