Be the Leader

September 27, 2022 – What I am learning is, I am in control. I am understanding this with each day and with each interaction (or non-interaction). I get to choose how I react or respond to each situation. Nothing is personal unless I make it personal. I’m understanding this now. I’m not numb or avoiding. In fact, I think that I’m more open and vulnerable. I will have my voice and I will not compromise who I am anymore.

I know that this is suppose to be my pedagogy or teaching/learning blog post, and it is. A part of how I teach and learn is who I am. A part of who I am is how I feel and how I treat myself and others. It’s the end of the day and I’m determined to write my mid-week blog post, mid-week. I need to take these opportunities and not procrastinate. Conversely, I was tired yesterday. I need to recognize that too and respect that too.

I feel really good about my work today, but I did not get through as much as I wanted to. Do I feel bad about it? Not yet… LOL. The train is still moving and I can only do the best that I can. I am forging my path, not following. In doing so, I am being the leader that I’ve always wanted. I am honest with myself. I respect myself. I am kind to self. I am celebrating the successes and conceding at moments to pause, reflect, or rest.

In many ways, I need to model what I would like from my students. I am so grateful for the group that I am working with this year and joyful about my workload. It’s busy. Don’t get me wrong, but I am getting to do everything that I want to do. I just have to find ways to balance rest, productivity, and timelines. I am learning and this year I actually feel like I can do this. I’m building my sense of self-efficacy. Yay me!!