Keeping Busy

You would think I would have missed the first day of school.  This was my first year in 17 years living on the Sunshine Coast where I did not start off the school year at work greeting a new crop of students to the high school.  In fact, this year I was in Vancouver preparing and prepping for the EGSA Seminar Series and getting my employment forms to SFU for the MEd Education Site Assistant position with the Surrey cohort.

While my daughter was spending her first full-day at school, I was commuting home by transit that morning from Vancouver to the Sunshine Coast.  I took a moment while drinking my latte at Starbucks in Horseshoe Bay thinking this was the first day of school, but that’s it.  The first day of school seemed more like the first day of my ‘new’ life as a graduate student.  Although I am looking forward, I do look back.

As mentioned in earlier blogs, it does not pay to look back.  If you turn right, stay right.  I am reminded over and over again that looking back is a futile process.  Yet, I still do.  I’m not sure what I am looking for or what I am expecting, but I often wonder what it would be like if I kept my job and not left. Why wonder?  I hear stories… some good… some bad… and ultimately, I am happy that I had made my decision to leave and pursue other avenues.

What did I do today?  I made a drum.  Aside from tutoring, writing, blogging, parenting, researching, and such… I made an ELK HIDE drum today.  I LOVED IT.  The day was like the 11th day of the Pulling Together Journey.  There were stories, smudging, ceremony, and opportunities to learn something new and connect with friends.  An unbelievable experience and I feel that my world just got a little bit bigger.  How can I be so lucky?

I am keeping busy.  I have my research and writing… I love blogging… I adore tutoring math… and I love connecting with people.  My family, friends, colleagues, and strangers I meet along the way are phenomenal and I am fortunate to have so many things on the go.  For example, this week is Zoe’s bike club and aikido… and on Friday I am reconnecting with my SFU-Sunshine Coast study buddies to talk EDU-GAB.  Love it.

Sadly, I do continue to look outwards for more things to do when really I have plenty on my plate.  Curling starts in a few weeks and I am PLOWING through my paper so that I can start interviewing participants for my study.  Why am I looking for more things to do?  I’m busy.  I love what I am doing.  I love what I am learning.  I am challenging my false-beliefs and I get to choose.  What more could I ask for?  I have it all.