Starting All Over Again

Oh my goodness… revisiting my dissertation proposal for the n-th time feels like starting all over again.  I am building a great respect for those doctoral candidates who finished their dissertations in a timely manner.  Thoughts have to be clear and direction focused.  Can you see my problem?

I have an awesome topic.  I think that I am writing purposefully, but in the end, I am not.  I often feel like I am “writing” into a wall and can’t seem to walk around it.  I sit here almost one year later contemplating the approach to my topic.  In the end, it ends up somewhere else.  Is this where I want to be?

With each step forward, leads to two steps back… I am beginning to wonder what my motivation to finish is.  I get frustrated.  I think that I am learning, but I believe that I am running out of steam.  It is only brief moments from inspiration, like TedxSechelt, that makes venturing out into academia worthwhile.  Come on number 6… I want to get out of START fast.