Getting Things Done

August 2, 2025 – Holy Moly, Bad Timing

As you can see, it’s August. And honestly, it feels like a tidal wave of STUFF just landed in my lap for work. Not complaining. In fact, I think that I like working under this kind of pressure. I like the pressure… otherwise, nothing gets done. Just to conflate this feeling of overwhelm, everything is taking a lot longer than anticipated to get done. Strangely, it’s not unexpected, but setting unrealistic time goals does not help my situation. It a fine balance between pressure and space. Sadly, I have not found the sweet spot between the two. I have some unreasonable feelings of comfort being under pressure with timelines and work expectations. It appears that I am an all-or-none kind of person. And yet, some things are taking a LONG TIME to complete.

I am reminded of my kid when she was about 12-years old and she was wanting the jump of the pier and into the ocean. She was an excellent swimmer, so I had no worries about her being in the ocean and swimming back to shore. I was more worried about how many times will she approach the edge of the pier and NOT jump off. Oh my gosh… it seemed like a lifetime. Back and forth she went from wanting to jump, approaching the edge of the pier, looking down, and walking back to me. She believed that she could not do it, so she didn’t… even though she wanted to jump in. After 30 minutes or so, she did it. SHE LOVED IT. Now my problem was… when will she stop jumping off the pier and into the ocean so that we could go home?

I want to jump into the ocean.

Let’s be clear… I don’t swim. But I do empathize with my kid who was seemingly reluctant to take her first jump. I can only imagine the self-doubt of one’s abilities and the fear of the unknown. What will happen to me if I jump? Will I be harmed? Can I do really this? What I witnessed that day only serves as a metaphor for me and my academic work. I have very similar questions and can only imagine the kind of momentum I could develop, much like my kid did. Sometimes I think I have micro-amnesia. I just forget the good feeling of THE JUMP. The frequency of her jumping off the pier was almost exponential to the point where she did not want to stop.

I want that feeling. I just finished cleaning up a paper that was originally written to be a conference proceeding (at approximately 7500 words) and we just transformed it into a book chapter submission. I was the lead on that paper and it was interesting to return to the paper and look at where we were 2 years ago and where were are now. We kept the integrity of that paper to keep that work in 2023, but took the time time to update it, reformat it, and revise it so that it could be included in this book. The only reason we returned to this book is because I was looking at my CV and nothing was happening with the conference proceeding. It was like we got ghosted. Anyway, I took a chance to ask about submitting a last minute book chapter instead. We got a response a couple of days ago, and we got to work. I did most of the work as lead author, but my other two co-authors were very willing to review the paper as well.

We just finished the final edits this afternoon, prior to the blog post, and voilà… the chapter and abstract were submitted. Admittedly, it feels great!! I also submitted as second author (but did a good chunk of the work with another colleague) last month. That work was also rewarding to get done, of which was responding to reviewer feedback for resubmission). We did an overhaul of that manuscript and I took the liberty to track the edits, finalize the paper, and communicate those changes to the editor. Moreover, I was also active in two other manuscripts as second and fourth author, but not as involved as the last two manuscripts mentioned. I did take the time to contribute and add very thorough edits and feedback for the first authors. If anything, it gives me a lot of practice and builds my confidence for this work. I felt “the high” from jumping… and then, YOU WAIT. The immediate feedback is lacking.

Dang, I love the writing process. It is definitely a vehicle for me to think and reflect. In this case, I just realized that I am focused on the wrong thing as “feedback.” For some reason, I was focused on the outcome as the motivator, meaning the publication or end result. When really, the joy from submitting the manuscript, the writing process (or grind), getting feedback from peers, doing edits, etc. is the immediate feedback that would encourage me to try again… and jump. How cliché… it’s the journey, not the destination that matters. Sometimes the platform of the pier is at a different height. The self-doubt and fear creep in once again, creating a pause in the process, but really, what I am realizing is, the remedy is to jump in. Just do it!! OK. There is a disclaimer. I have also done a lot of personal work as well to build my confidence, self-knowledge, and the willingness to pursue what I love to do. That took a lot of work and life changes, and I am still doing that work. Maybe today is the convergence of the personal and the professional. What I do know for sure, I am going to savour this feeling of completion today, and jump in again with something new. I can do this.

I know I can do this.

My next task is… Fall 2025 Course Outlines.