Being Bold

Today, I am left feeling blah.  First of all, don’t have a bowl of spaghetti for lunch.  I spent most of my day digesting carbs… not a good thing.  Aside from that, I have questions to answer… personal questions.  “Are you going to return back to teaching?” … “Are you going to run for school trustee again in 2014?” … “Are you finished your doctorate yet?”... blah, blah, blah… and still no answers (or at least ones that I’m willing to admit to).  By not answering these questions, everything is on hold.  As a result, I feel indecisive, uncommitted, and unfulfilled.  I have much at stake with much to do… and it does not feel good.  As much as I want to make a difference in education, I am holding myself back.  This angers me.  My procrastination agonizes me.  In the end, BEING BOLD becomes a lie.  For a person who doesn’t like to lie, I’m lying to myself.  This sucks… I’m done.  It’s making decision time.