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Week 126 – August 14, 2022 – Surrendering To What Is

Wow. I am slowly losing access to my WordPress account. Accessing only by media apps and updates that are automatic, I am only able to do what I can do. Right now, that means blog with text only. I am unable to upload a picture at this time. I will try again later, but this might be a new way of being. Blogging without the image to supplement my text or provide me with the inspiration I thought I needed to write.

How serendipitous this mishap of not being able to upload an image to this blog. There is apparently some error (noted be a message and number) and I want to blog. I will say that I did try a few times with a few different images to arrive to the same outcome of “nope, not for you today.” The question remains, do you keep trying or move on? Welcome to today’s #pandemicreflections weekly blog post. Surrender.

I am writing my blog post. It’s going to happen and I had to re-navigate to get the job done. I am not accepting of the idea of that I am unable to upload an image to my blog post but I am surrendering to this limitation or barrier to get to what I need to do. I’m taking a different direction. I loved what I saw today on an art gallery artifact that said, “Just because my path is different… doesn’t mean that I’m lost.” Agreed.

This saying resonated with me as well as a few recent podcasts I’ve been listening to. I’ve been doing the work and as you as have saw in my last blog post about “Celebrating Christine Day,” I have really landed on being myself and feeling good about it. I don’t need the approval of others or give up who I am as a person to please others or meet perceived expectations to belong. I belong to myself and love it.

It feels great to be motivated from the inside. It’s ok to disagree with others. I don’t have to agree so that I can feel like I belong to a community. I have my own community and my own way of being. Others are (or may) be doing the same thing and I am 100% ok with that. I am making my own choices and it may not be the same as others… and that’s ok. I am not motivated by fear or what others think of me.

I am ok with myself and who I am as a person. It’s been awhile since I’ve felt this way. I wonder if I’ve ever felt this way. I must of had moments but what I am focussed on is keeping this way of being sustainable and joyful. As one podcast said, you have to hit the bottom to look up and move up. I feel like I’ve been there. I am more acutely aware of the 1/3 of people lifting me up and avoiding the 1/3 who bring me down.

I love that metaphor of the tree and its roots moving through the ground. There is one purpose and if there is anything that gets in the way, move around it. That’s what I’m doing. This is surrendering. It’s not about acceptance. I still don’t like the rock and wished it wasn’t there, but I am not going to overspend my time or energy trying to get through the rock or accept the rock (and stop growing). I’m taking another path.

So, here we are with this week’s reflection (without a photo) and moving forward. I spent many times trying to work my way through the rock, change the rock, or hope that the rock would transform in some way so that it was no longer an obstacle. No thank you. I’ve learned my lesson. Acknowledge that there is a rock. Understand that you cannot go through the rock. Surrender and find another path to keep moving.