Dinner for One

Week 98 – January 30, 2022 – Being Kind to Self

As we head towards the lunar new year, I feel more optimistic than ever despite the pandemic. We’ve recently acknowledged the 2-year anniversary of the first case of COVID-19 being in BC and I started in March 2020 to write a weekly blog on my “pandemic reflections” to humour myself thinking that the pandemic would end sooner than later. We are almost at Week 100 and still trying to overcome the fifth wave of Omicron. I am imagining this weekly blog (via phone) will continue for quite some time as I am warming up to the idea of living with COVID-19.

As an extrovert who loves to high five, hug, or punch someone on the shoulder, being out and about during the pandemic is not safe for me or others. Much of the last 2-years I’ve been reprogramming and reflecting. I’ve been doing my own personal pivots and I have never felt better. I can honestly say that “I feel like myself.” For awhile there I was feeling more like myself but I think I have arrived and it feels great. It’s been a long time since I’ve been here. I suspect the last time I felt like myself was in Grade 9, which was in the 1980’s.

No regrets. Life brings you to place where you are suppose to be. It’s always the right place and the right time whether if we believe it or resist it. I look forward ti the Year of the Tiger. My brother and sister has named this year, the Year of Chris. I can appreciate that. There are still lots of changes on the horizon and I invite them. I have nothing to hide or be scared of.

I’ve been in my midlife unravelling for the last 10 years… a gradual state of transformation. The pandemic has been fruitful as it forced me to slow down, stop, and be silent. I am very grateful to be working throughout the pandemic and oddly prefer to teach online to isolate myself from others. However, we are back to teaching in person and I’ve got my booster. I have to be ok with getting out again.

DINNER FOR ONE was an excellent litmus to how things are and how I was doing. My kid was working and I opted to come at the usual time to pick her up instead of waiting for her phone call. I waited for about 30 minutes in my car. Not particularly fun (and kind of cold) that I opted to go inside to wait. My kid got me a seat in the lounge and I had excellent food and service. What a nice treat for me and I had a great time being with myself and in public. I look forward to the rest of 2022.