Restart

I’ve been here before.  I feel like I’m Bill Murray in “Groundhog Day.”  Events are happening that I feel that I’ve done already.  I must not be learning.  What lesson am I suppose to learn?  I honestly woke up this morning thinking I’ve been here before.  It’s time to break the cycle.  So, what’s the lesson?

Well, my weight has been up and down.  My academic studies have been up and down.  My teaching career has been up and down.  Blah, blah, blah.  When I look at the big picture, I still have my heath, I’m in school, and I still teach kids.  Truly, I do not have much to complain about.  Things are good.

I mention in an earlier blog entry, I have to JUMP.  Just JUMP.  Trust.  And, jump.  What’s happening?  Nothing.  There is no jumping.  Where am I jumping?  Does it really matter?  As much as I loved teaching in public schools, I have a dream.  My vision is standing on stage facing a huge audience.  What am I talking about?  Not sure.  But, that’s my vision.

My deepest desire is to contribute to public education.  I could have kept with the status quo, but I was looking for more.  I started teaching in 1994.  In 2001, I completed my Master degree and got married; in 2003, I gave birth to my daughter; in 2004, I returned back to work; in 2008, I joined the Doctor of Education cohort; in 2009, I passed my comprehensive exam; in 2010, I left teaching; and in 2011, I ran for municipal election and won.  I’ve jumped in the past 10 years and it’s time to JUMP.

I’ve been here before.  Deja vu.  The question is, am I moving forwards or am I jumping back into a cycle?  Maybe I should not view this situation as an opportunity to JUMP, but an opportunity to RESTART.  It’s time to find that BIG button and press start.  What have I done so far?  First, I have organized my time to do certain things at certain times.  I’m commuting to SFU to attend the Certificate of Teaching and Learning (CUTL) program.  I have met with my sub-cohort study buddy and submitted my Spring 2012 Gantt Chart and Learning Contract to my supervisors.  And, I am about to revisit my “Significance of the Study” in Chapter 1 to move onto Chapter 2, again.  Jumping.